happy bday to my guy! he just turned 28 today.

i surprised him by bringing a cake to our workplace and approached him at exactly 12AM with two other friends.. he was all smile and that makes me happy.. he thought that was the only surprised but he didnt know i was saving to give him a surprise party.

when he got home, he was surprised that his old friends and some of his colleagues were there to celebrate his special day. prepared lots of food even if i had no sleep..

when they finally settled to drink. i decided to sleep.. after 2 hours he woke me up.. we talked about our relationship problems followed by...

(HINT HINT) wink***

so sleepy..

for the last three days.. im feeling sick.. i feel dizzy and feel like vomiting..

and nope.. im  not pregnant..

or am i? OMG

dont u just hate it when people you trust betrayed you? well, i feel like i was just betrayed.. i had this so called "friend" that i became close with when we got pregnant at the same time.. we also has the same experiences with our life (love life).. maybe it was much more complicated for her or i could say she has more problems with her guy than i am.. aside from womanizing, his guy hit him and i guess drinks a lot..

after telling her almost all things ive done and  im still doing (ex. setting up person finder on my guy's phone).. i just found out that she spilled almost every info directly to my guy.. they were friends.. i guess my mistake is believing she wont sell me to my guy.. but she did.. my guy and i fought abt the person finder thingy the other day.. he said.. the "friend" thought he knows abt it.. and i thought "that was so stupid to think".. she's just lucky that although i know his guy.. i wont do to her wat she's doing to me.. (although i realy want to, haha)

i guess i should learn not to easily trust people.. ha.. another lesson learned..

curiousity kills the cat.

mas madami ko nasusulat pag may problema ko tska malungkot ako.. bkit kaya?

i think im back to tabulas..

i think im going to be ok..

im being tortured ryt now by the person i love.. we been fyting for 4 days.. and i cant take it.. he'd been ignoring me and sometimes would hug me den wud get mad at me again.. i dont know wat to think anymore.. we fought because i asked him abt something dat indirectly tells him dat im suspecting him again.. he said "my saltik na ko sa utak" i need to be treated, to see a psychiatrist.. but all i need is assurance..

i love you..

the reason why i hold on..